Hey, Peggy, Tenneson, all
I wasn't physically at the gathering (you might have noticed... ;-)) but I was very much present in the field. I know that things have shifted for me - and I sense that it's connected with this deep evolutionary field where the meaning of what it is to be human is shifting. I feel more and more like the N'avi of Pandora - physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually connected in to the kosmos in a way I was never aware of before.
So my context has shifted - that which I bring with me to hosting myself and interacting with, being in the field with, others. The meaning of why I show up has shifted. There is an awareness that humanity has a function in the Gaian metabolism. We are what sees her beauty and weeps for her destruction. We are her sensory, meaning making, story-telling function. Now that we are globally connected, the 'noosphere' can truly be born, and we can start to explore together what that might mean. We are not yet fulfilling that function fully, because there aren't yet enough of us who are conscious of it. I choose the word metabolism, as above and beyond an ecosystem: when we begin to fulfil our function, Gaia can begin to fulfil a different function in the kosmos.
And I realise I have added a new, conscious practice - that of hosting the field. Deliberately throwing out my awareness like a lasso to embrace the broadest perspective I can get my psychic arms around, and sensing into: what is the coherent pattern that is pulsing in this field? And what does it feel like to align with that? And what does it bring to the physical context that I am operating in right now?
This all sounds very grandiose, I'm sure, but isn't it just the Art of Humans Being?
Hello Peggy and all, thanks for inviting this conversation and reflection.
Like for Tenneson, it is hard for me to distuinguish what is linked to this particular gathering and what comes out of the next one, or life itself.
But I can tell all of you that my intention set at the end of the gathering - that I will not only write, but publish my book - has taken me to a next step. Just recently we started talking about the material in the book with a couple of very good friends, who were with me in the discovery of the material. It showed me that the final points of the book could not be found by myself alone. I needed the others, or we needed a collective field, to manifest and see the final strokes of the models that I have seen.
This to me is part of the new pattern: that we cannot do it on our own anymore; that the next creation will always be a collective one, in a real co-creation.
I’m no longer interested in trying to make things happen. I want to be discerning and to align myself with what wants to happen.
~ from Steve’s note above
I trust this note reaches you and yours well and warm, contented, in good health, and at ease. I'm two years late, but better now than never. May it spark another round of reflection and communication.
I've thought of you often, the space we hold, and that beautiful retreat center in Essex. I've often thought to write this note and how. Truth is, I got caught up in my new story. Now that I’m ready for the next chapter, I write for your help again, as you were instrumental in the chapter just closing.
Our time together preceded, and precipitated, huge change in my life. AoHB was a portal into the new story. I knew I needed to leave Dallas. There's a time for aphorisms about blooming where you're planted and there's a time to get the hell outta Dodge.
I was embracing the idea of my new story and, to that me, it looked like a return to college for some higher ed. When you've read extensively in one genre, you can't begin to imagine scripting outside that genre. Which is to say, I did not end up at Antioch University for a Masters in Organizational Design. Which is super.
Within 1 month of our meeting, I followed a lead from a friend of a friend, more like glowing Divine Guidance, to a yoga retreat center, ~ ashram, in northeastern Pennsylvania. Within 2 months of our meeting, I moved here. I do their social media, as I did for AoHB. I live in circumstances that are physically exactly what I specified in previous visioning exercises.
For two years, I've lived and worked in a not-quite-intentional community. I've been initiated into the 5000-year-old living tradition of the Himalayan sages. In that sense, it’s felt like a homecoming. I've learned and lived yoga and Ayurveda, spirituality, holistic health. Were I to tell you all I've learned here, I'd need to publish a catalog. Not to say that I've reached the end of the lessons here, just my capacity to assimilate them.
Sidebar: I’ve (re)accessed a conscious, not just academic, understanding of the subtle violence of patriarchy, colonialism, top-down organization structures. Also, through counterpoint, I’ve begun my journey back to the Divine Feminine, the sacred role of woman as healer, power, force.
One exercise we did at Essex was the very first time, despite years of work with coaches, that I was able to claim my dream. As with many exercises in this toolbox, it SOUNDS simple enough, but I almost gasp to tell it, or lapse into nervous giggles.
I drew a beachfront house.
That’s it. It’s huge. Power of place, etc.
I’m now visioning towards that.
I am so thankful that I get to live on a beach in a warm climate with saltwater breezes and fresh air in a culture of joy and generosity in and near a diverse worldly community.
I am so excited to write the story that is mine to write.
Here’s how you can help –
I need a location and an introduction.
Here’s what I can do –
I can consult on social media, marketing, copy editing, copy writing. I can teach yoga. I can teach children (certified ESL teacher). I can housesit. I can personal assist. I can elder care. I can nanny. I can admin, clerical, waitress, bar tend, etc etc.
I will work at the above tasks for livelihood part-time. The rest of the time I will attend my life’s work. I will write. I have a story. It’s ready. I’m ready. I am looking for somewhere beautiful to write it.
I look forward to hearing from you. How are you living the new story? What’s resonating for you? What’s it like? How’s it been? Can I help you with anything? Can I facilitate key introductions in Dallas or in the yoga community?
And, do you know any beaches that are looking for another kindred soul?
Deep bows and distance hugs,
HI Suzanne! Nice to hear your story of what happened in the meantime, since we met in that AoHB. You probably know there was another one this summer.
Of course, I'm too far away for you to offer anything of a beach or related to that.And so far I don't need any introductions into Dallas (which I only know from TV, from the series)
And I don't know how many people are following this online conversation, so maybe you could post it to the emaillist that we had (ask Judy if you need it) or post it to the AoH group on Facebook - it will reach wider!
With love to you!